Before Sunset

I just finished a Before Sunrise and Before Sunset marathon, and I always come out learning new things every time I finish watching both movies.

One of the conversations that most struck me while watching it this time was when Jesse and Celine were in that tourist-y ferry boat. Here are a few snippets of the conversation:

You know, I think that book that I wrote,

in a way, was like building something.

So that I wouldn’t forget the details of the time that we spent together.

You know, like just a reminder that…

that once we really did meet, you know, that this was real,

this happened.

And, how can you say that? Because…

I mean, I always feel like a freak because I’m never able to move on like…

…this! You know.

People just have an affaire, or even… entire relationships…

They break up and they forget!

They move on like they would have changed a brand of Cereals!

I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with.

Because each person have…

you know,

specific qualities.

You can never replace anyone.

What is lost is lost.

Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me.

I haven’t fully recovered.

That’s why I’m very careful with getting involved, because…

It hurts too much!

Even getting laid!

I actually don’t do that…

I will miss of the person the most mundane things.

Like I’m obsessed with little things.

Maybe I’m crazy, but…

When I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school.

One day she followed me to see why…

I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees,

rolling on the sidewalk, or…

ants, crossing the road…

the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk…

Little things.

I think it’s the same with people.

I see in them little details, so specific to each other,

that move me, and that I miss, and…

will always miss.

You can never replace anyone,

because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details.

Like I remember the way…

your beard has a little bit of red in it.

And how the sun was making it glow that…

that morning, right before you left.

I remember that, and…

I missed it!

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Oh, God, why didn’t we exchange phone numbers and stuff? Why didn’t we do that?

Because we were young and stupid.

Do you think we still are?

I guess when you’re young, you just believe there’ll be many people with whom you’ll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times.

And you can screw it up, you know, misconnect.

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I miss conversations like these. I miss making connections.

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